Wo(a)ndering thoughts!!!

I’ve officially watched every serial killer documentary Netflix has to offer. At this point, if there was a PhD in "Staring Blankly at Grainy CCTV Footage," I’d be aceing it. I draw the line at horror, though—ghosts are unrealistic, but a guy with a basement and a manifesto? That’s just Tuesday night entertainment. The problem is, this "education" has turned me into a paranoid investigator. Last week, during my 5:00 AM personal training session at the gym, I spotted it: a roll of black electrical tape sitting right next to a bowl of jelly beans. My brain immediately hit the panic button.  "Hey," I call my trainer "why is this here?"  pointing to the black tape. My trainer started explaining how he used it to patch up the cushions on the gym machines, or how he’d used a strip to fix his watch strap. I’m not sure what else he said because I zoned out after "watch strap." I just shrugged and went back to my deadlifts. A few seconds later,...

I don't know it's the DNA or it's simply the country we live in or the sport G is passionate about or the exposure he gets all through the year..  It's something,  something makes A believe he will become a cricketer one day and play for Australian team..In our recent trivia time I asked him "Who will be a superstar cricketer in the year 2030".. Guess what he answered !! "Ofcourse, its AG!!" G tries to bring him to support India,  but it never happens.. A supports OZ even when they are in their worst form.. Recently I gather to worst of my nightmare,  2019 and 2020 is the year for cricket lovers..  First it's summer in OZland and then to IPL then to World Cup.. Before we know it,  it's summer  again in OZ then in 2020- its 20-20 world cup back in OZ..  I should seriously think about getting a second TV. It's about time,  I'm a cricket illiterate in the house everyone else believes its a religion.. and I'm not ashamed!!...

Life isn’t fair, To my friend who was ambitious in high school, got married, dropped out of collage, gave birth to a beautiful child, her high dreams taunted her,  She felt suffocated, She thought she was a failure,   One day, she took her life just like that..  Life is unfair To her baby boy,  He was told it was a sign of bad omen that took his mother's life, he started life with humiliation with no mistakes of his own,  Life isn’t fair To anyone. No one is left alone here,  If you are special, you will be treated worse in the unfair world,  why me you may ask, because you are special.

Can I stop time! It is hard to keep up with months and years. I'd started this year in a remote farm stay(town called Harrow) like cave men with no internet and phone service. It felt peaceful for once, no anxiety to check my phone every few mins for messages/status/junk mails/FB posts. It was a good start.. I don't believe in resolution, never took one.. I don't know why I told myself to "watch what I eat this year" .. I have been only watching myself eat a lot, nothing more than that. It was supposed to be Monday start every week  which never came. Hey, no complaints there.. I love food, on that note another positive year.. 2018 to remember for so many reasons, Mum and dad visited us to see A start school, short visit to Cambodia , been to Brisbane for boys bday, a short trip to India to see the folks and few weekend getaways with friends.. I never believed the saying life changes after having children , but this year its been mostly around A's schedu...

Second in the list is Patience .. As a older millennial, its all about now, Patience is the word not practiced much. I never knew I had one until I become a mother, I get tested on mine everyday, 'Mom! its your turn to switch off lights today!! "Why don't you do it,  you are standing right next to the switch?!" "Yea, but its your turn!!" I have always envied people who had one Now I have empathy, full of it!! Thinking and thanking my family for tolerating me.. I can be snappy and crappy sometimes.. Again I blame my hormones for that. Check out my other posts on  10 days of gratitude , Day 5: The little things Day 4: Memories Day 3:The Imperfections Day 1: My Anxiety

“Mom, I wish I had a Genie” my 6yr old tells me first thing in the morning half-awake in his bed. I kiss and tell him “Me too!!.. “ I wish I had a Genie who can do the convincing job of making you eat veggies/fruits, I wish I had a Genie who can do the arguments with you when it comes to hard-parenting, I wish I had a Genie who can make us dinner and lunch   just like that so I can spend more time with you, I wish I had a Genie that can help me erase the memories that gives me mommy guilt, I wish I had a Genie who can make the day longer after we reach home so I can spend more time with you, I wish I had a Genie who can take us in the magic carpet on a ride to see talking animals and super heros, I wish I have a Genie who records everything we do together and play back those good laughs we had when I’m home alone after you grow up and fly away.. I wish I have a genie now..  I know I 'm only allowed 3 grants from Genie but.. I...

Where would we be without tomorrows? What we’d have instead are todays. And if that was the case, with you, I’d hope for the longest day for today . I’d fill today with you, doing everything I’ve ever loved. I’d laugh, I’d talk, I’d listen and learn, I’d love, I’d love, I’d love. I’d make every day today and spend them all with you, and I’d never worry about tomorrow, when I wouldn’t be with you. And when that dreaded tomorrow comes for us, please know that I didn’t want to leave you, or be left behind, that every single moment spent with you were the best times in my life.”  ―  Cecelia Ahern ,   How to Fall in Love Beautifully written lines, don't you agree.. I just loved it when I read it recently.. I couldn't stop reading it again and again.. Talking about falling in love, its that time of the year again when the whole world gets ready for their swim wears and tanned body.. Down under we get our winter coats and jackets ready.. Flip flops and summer dresses are ...