Wo(a)ndering thoughts!!!

Can I stop time! It is hard to keep up with months and years. I'd started this year in a remote farm stay(town called Harrow) like cave men with no internet and phone service. It felt peaceful for once, no anxiety to check my phone every few mins for messages/status/junk mails/FB posts. It was a good start.. I don't believe in resolution, never took one.. I don't know why I told myself to "watch what I eat this year" .. I have been only watching myself eat a lot, nothing more than that. It was supposed to be Monday start every week  which never came. Hey, no complaints there.. I love food, on that note another positive year.. 2018 to remember for so many reasons, Mum and dad visited us to see A start school, short visit to Cambodia , been to Brisbane for boys bday, a short trip to India to see the folks and few weekend getaways with friends.. I never believed the saying life changes after having children , but this year its been mostly around A's schedu

I'm finishing up my series on  10 days of gratitude with a special post. Last but not the least is Happiness. Happiness is Waking up to sound of a chirping bird, walking in silence before a busy day, sipping hot chai after a nap, cuddling inside a cozy comforter, smell of rain, laughing with dear ones, listening to soulful music, singing karaoke with A, Spending time worthy with someone, goss with friends, going on a long drive, Home. This is a special post not because its last in the series, it is special because my cheeky monkey(6yr old) wants to add his thoughts too Happiness for A is,  playing street cricket on summer days, going to after-school-care, McD's ice cream, eating Chocolates, pancakes on Sunday, Friday night movie night, cooking with mom, Trick ta to carry me, board games, being naughty, penguin kisses, Love. I'm so grateful for last 10 days to pen down things that Im thankful for. Looking back, I strongly feel I'm

This is part of my series on  10 days of gratitude.   In no particular order, 9th in my list is  Ignorance . Ignorance is bliss, you know why? more I know, more I feel disappointed. more I want to prove, more I struggle. more I ignore people more inner peace. more I focus on whats needed, more I don't care. Ignorance is bliss, you know why? it keeps me sane. PC:Google Images I'm really grateful for my ignorance especially when it comes to people..Insecure people try their best to get to me, I'm trying not to react. I have to tell myself, its  not me. It is tiring, it takes great toll on my energy, it takes time and practice.. But I'm trying. I'm thankful for my mindfulness to find ways out. Grateful for those people who keep reminding me that it is not me. Check out my other posts on  10 days of gratitude , D ay 10: Happiness Day 8: Life as it comes Day 7:Taken for granted Day 6: Wanderlust Day 5: The little things Day 4: Mem

This is my 8th day on 10 days of gratitude posts until Christmas, this post is 8 . Life as it comes. " What do you want to be when you grow up ?" My grandpa asked me when I was 8 yrs old. I think I said I want to be dancer. Little did I know, I had to learn first to become one. At 17, I didn't had any choice other than to join 'Engineering' , I thought I'm done with schooling after 4yrs. Little did I know, ' Just Engineering ' is not enough. "Mom, I got my US Visa"  I called my mom from a phone booth outside embassy, I had no idea why I was doing what I was doing. Little did I know, I was taking a big step in life. At 24, I didn't know a thing about this faraway land down under, I quit my job and said goodbye to dear ones. Little did I know, life changes for good. At 30, we moved to a country with open return ticket due to political situation. With 1yr old along side and 14 bags I landed in a new country alone. Li

I'm writing a ten day series on 10 things that I'm grateful for. This is my 7th day and I'm grateful for everything - its about T aken for  Granted . He stinks!! I see him everyday. He sits outside 7-11 and has a paper next to him that says ‘ Help me ’. His cloths are dirty and his pants are too low from the back. Probably he needs a shower, clean cloths and a proper meal. I’m not judging him, he has other problems too - finding a toilet, and he uses this dirty plastic bottle to refill water to drink. He sits on different side of the platform everyday but around the same big building. it doesn't matter whether it is 3 deg or 39 deg outside, he sits somewhere on the sidewalk. And probably sleeps there too. Things that I take for granted on everyday ground from clean water, a clean cloths, a warm food, comfy bed, toilet etc., is someone else's luxury.  I'm not going to feel better just because it is not me sitting there. It could be me too. Lif

I’m  writing about 10 things that I’m grateful for.. that's everyday until Christmas, four days to go and  Day 6 is Wanderlust . I close my eyes and pick a place, Somewhere sandy, somewhere breezy, With coconut trees and many more tall green trees, I don’t see a soul in there, It’s so quiet and peaceful, I can hear the waves. ‘Mommy!! We’ve reached, Look out the window!!’, I open my eyes and see my dream. Dreams could go beyond reality, but when it  comes true, It’s just beautiful and perfect.. If I get lost, I’ll find my way back, If the food is blunt, I won’t complain, If the food is spicy, I’ll have an ice cream, I would live like local and Bargain like a tourist. I’m so grateful for all the time I spent in those places and the wanderlust inside me. It changes perspective, it helped widen my mind, it shaped me in a good way. The cultures, people, the food, lifestyle, traditions.. I’m so grateful for everything I learnt on my journey.

This is part of my series on 10 days of gratitude that is everyday until Christmas. My little one asked me today "If I had to choose one thing that I liked about him this year, what would that be?" .. My reply to him is this post - The  little things. Last Christmas, I was nervous about you starting school for first time, I wasn't sure about anything, new school, new friends, teachers, lunches, play dates, after school care and the whole new routine!! Those things which seemed like a mountain last year, is all so blurry now, You made everything simple. Little things I'm thanking you for today is not so little for your age, I really appreciate every little thing you did that made my life better. Our conversations during our dinner time is the best of all. But I would pick your hugs and kisses <with 'I love you ma'> any day. Be curious and ask me questions like you always do, Challenge me with your ideas, make me laugh with your

This is part of my series for 10 days of gratitude.   In no particular order, 4th in my list is Memories . PC:Google images My granny used to tell me about the day I was born, she would've told me that many a times, I'd never got tired of it, It got better and better every time I heard it. I can recall my summer holidays spent with my cousins, I just want to go back and freeze those moments, I have it even framed in my mind. Its been years since I met my best friends from collage, but it never feels like I miss them, every time we speak it feels so fresh, we get older but in our memories, we are still in our twenties. I'm thankful for all the memories I cherish from every frame of my life. People come and go, however the imprint they leave in our lives stay forever.  Check out my other posts on  10 days of gratitude , Day 5: The little things Day 3:The Imperfections Day 2:Patience Day 1: My Anxiety

Third in my series on 10 days of gratitude is The   Imperfections .. I don't have a perfect nail, I don't have a perfect hair, I don't have a perfect toned body, I don't have a perfect life!! I rather have a half polished nails, that reminds of the good times I had with my little one doing 'crafts', I rather cancel my hair appointment, and settle for a book. I rather be curvy, and indulge in food trails. I rather make mistakes to learn some lessons, I'm happy being perfectly imperfect!! I’m thankful for all the imperfections in my life.. Check out my other posts on  10 days of gratitude , Day 5: The little things Day 4: Memories Day 2:Patience Day 1: My Anxiety

Second in the list is Patience .. As a older millennial, its all about now, Patience is the word not practiced much. I never knew I had one until I become a mother, I get tested on mine everyday, 'Mom! its your turn to switch off lights today!! "Why don't you do it,  you are standing right next to the switch?!" "Yea, but its your turn!!" I have always envied people who had one Now I have empathy, full of it!! Thinking and thanking my family for tolerating me.. I can be snappy and crappy sometimes.. Again I blame my hormones for that. Check out my other posts on  10 days of gratitude , Day 5: The little things Day 4: Memories Day 3:The Imperfections Day 1: My Anxiety

I’m planning to write about 10 things that I’m grateful for.. that's everyday until Christmas. First one in the list is My  Anxiety   There was a time , you were totally invisible to me, I never noticed you even existed, That’s when I was young and carefree! Then came a phase in my life, I know you existed; I didn’t give a thought to know your name, I was too focused on my situation, All I know was, you were giving me sleepless nights.. Then came a phase I was curious to know your name, but I was already in the process of managing you. I had a "plan of attack", I looked for ways to   help me overcome you, I won’t say I’m completely under control, But I’m handling you better!! I’m thankful for my friends who helped me on this process. I’m glad I know my triggers to anxiety otherwise I wouldn't have known myself. I’m grateful for those sleepless nights that helped me re-discover myself.

Dear Santa, Its time of the year you are remembered in many ways, shopping centers having a money run to take picture with you, they have sessions for pets too now (Yes you heard it right, pets now get to take picture with you), kids busy writing their #wishlist and #letters. Netflix makes most of it by highlighting all those Christmas family movies. Families start to put up the (mostly fake plastic) trees and lights.  It is officially started to feel like festive season, my cousin from north America says they had snow storm already, although it’s quite warm down under during Christmas. I’m sure you would enjoy the warm nights when you drop in through the chimney. My little one still wonders how you get to our house 'coz we don’t have chimney. <I know he is secretly wishing for one now , please don't fulfill his wish on this, I have no idea how to use one for starters. Shh!! don't tell him that..> Anyhoo, you might be wondering what am I doing here

I wrote beauty and the beast when my little boy was 4yrs old, it was difficult to explain him why we have different skin color. Now he is 6.5yrs and I think he is fairly mature for his age. The same old question popped up recently but this time, he had a solution. ‘Mom, I was born in Australia and why do I still have different color?’ ‘Baby, its doesn’t matter where you were born, we are still your parents. You get what we got’.  He thought about it for a while and said ‘ Why can’t we all have same color, like everyone in this world’ . It really melted my heart hearing him say that, in his little mind he had a solution for unfairness. But.. Yes, there is a big BUT… How do I tell him that babies get killed in some parts of this world just because it’s a GIRL. How do I tell him that there are children in this world who had to walk 5 km everyday to get a decent education? How do I explain him that people kill each other and call it honor killing in t

I'm hooked on to 'The good place' in Netflix..Have you watched it? I'm becoming a fan of Kristen Bell not because of this series. I have been watching a lot of her Netflix 'Originals' these days. This series is about the so called concept of 'Heaven' -The good place and the 'Hell'- guess what!! obviously 'The bad place'. PC:Google Images I'm not here to discuss about the plot or review the series, you watch it yourself. I love comedy genre in general. Hence I'm watching. My grandma used to tell me that if I go to temple often, my sins will be washed/erased and technically my sin-counter reboots again. I never used to understand the logic. It sounds exactly like when someone tells me google doesn't record your information after you delet the browsing history. "SURE man!!". What if I kill someone, Do I get a pass? What if I abuse someone and ask for forgiveness? What if I cross a red light?  What if I

It has been seven years and 23 days to be precise, it gives me jitters even now thinking about it. It was a Friday night. Not any Friday, a special one..Hubby and I were looking forward  to fly out to Fiji to celebrate our 5 th  wedding anniversary. I had a mini performance (I used to learn classical Vocal) for a small group that evening after work. So our plan was to come back home after the performance and change before we drive to airport. Since our flight was at late night, it was no pressure. We had plenty of time to catch the flight after the performance. Living in  this  City/home for past 4 years, we never once felt unsafe or need for safety measures like alarm system in the house.  Once before this Friday, I remember our garage was open for whole day and never once it striked me that an intruder could get in to the house.   <Mistake no #1>  The good experiences from past made us take  safety for granted  Coming back to the Friday night, we were all

I wrote about blind dates in  lost and found myself post. After writing that, it started to bring back my self exploration memories and I thought I should pen down one of my blind date story from my # theblindlist . Do you agree that people around us influence our thoughts, I’m really lucky most of my friends are always planning their next holiday and inspiring me with their stories. This blind date is special to me because of my fascination towards this country, their history, culture and the accent that has a command in a classy way; More than that the awe for the monarchy that ruled half of the world at one point and ruled my home country almost 200 years. Yes, I’m talking about London – the city of my dreams. Being a big fan of Escape to country episodes, I dream to escape to an English country and live in an old house that has lots of character, surrounded by a huge farm. <With the option of Airbnb these days, maybe I can fulfil my dream soon.> Rewi

Rule of thumb for a blind date is to trust the process and to go on a date with no/zero expectation. You do not know who you are meeting until you see them. You cannot check their FB profile or see their stories in Insta. You go there with open mind. If you are lucky, you get a wonderful experience and stories to tell your grand children. Mine was no different, I must say I was always lucky with my blind dates. I have had so many experience of this. However, it was not like I didn't have a choice. Like most of you I too had a conventional way, but choose another way.  I'm talking about my blind dates with this world. Would you dare to go on a blind date with this world? I would. I certainly would. I love the idea of exploring the world , a new place without a map/GPS in hand. I just love the idea of embracing the local culture without reading a travelogue. I just love to taste local food at a street shop in a small alley 'coz local people eat there. I

I had a good friend, her name was 'Tasty fatty Food'(TFF), she was my everything..She was even my bae.. She was there when I'm happy, she was there when I'm sad and depressed. She was there when I watch TV and she would be right there when I'm bored. She was my everything.. Trust me, I never felt so much comfortable in anyone's company like hers. she is the best and she always makes me feel best.. Then I hit mid-thirties, I met this new friend - he loves to call himself 'Healthy eating(HE)'..I have to live with him for obvious reasons but I think we don't get along that well(Shh!!Don't tell him).. We have reached a point where I just  ignore him some days.. then I feel real guilty , I try and give every chance to be a good friend again. Somedays I miss my old friend, I try to meet her secretly and I call it my 'Cheat day'.. I swear I don't do many cheat days.. I'm really not that guilty.. I only do cheat days, Whe

I'm sure I'm not last in the game, I've finally joined the Netflix club and binge watching like anything..I finished 2 seasons of my fav show in no time.. I have to wait until 2019 for next season.. it is RIDICULOUS!!.. One thing I was afraid that would happen, actually happened.. I'm A-D-D-I-C-T-E-D!!  I hate that I love it.. There I said it.. Although I miss my reading and blogging... I couldn't believe I was into so much binge-ing, 3 weeks have gone without doing anything other than the bare necessities. .I skipped my morning walk to watch few more minutes of the movie I downloaded, I skipped reading to finish that episode of The Crown, I even had to pay late fees for not returning my library books.. Can you believe that!!! thats SO not me.. Aah Hah!!! It feels so blank , my mind is not even working.. G would agree that its the perfect solution to put my wondering mind into coma.. Today, I woke up with the sound of rain..what more can inspire to write th