Wo(a)ndering thoughts!!!

Wait!  is it already Mid-Dec ?? !!  its so Christmasy everywhere!!  I still remember the last few minutes of 2018,   I was flipping between Prime and Netflix to choose a right film to start 2019 positively. 12 months has rolled on, still flipping between them and the new addition of Disney+ to binge watch.  I reckon all this technology/entertainment is  mesmerising my life and taking me high on the weed trip.I feel with all this options, I’m slowly losing my mind with more absent mindedness. Good thing that came out of all this is I hardly get anxiety these days because I keep forgetting everything. I have given up on my calendar notification as it keeps buzzing every half hour to remind me of something.. Too much is too much. I'm sitting in my couch trying to recap past 12 months as if I was in some kind of Coma. Trip to London seems like a nice dream but I have picture proof that I have used the toilets in Buckingham palace (its not what you think!). And then to

Two of my work got selected in a poetry competition run by Greater Dandenong Council, Victoria. Both  Here and There  and Nostalgia got   published in a poetry book titled "HOME".   "Home" is a collection of work by talented individuals from different background. My piece here talks about nostalgic memories that  I call home.                                                       ----------------------------------------------------- My heart is still in that hot summer when I was 6, I played with my cousins climbing trees, Innocence, laughs and sour mangoes kept me going.. My heart is still in that hot summer when I was 10, I tricked my friends to see who could hold the breath longest, the cool dip, hot sun and water games kept me going.. My heart is still in that hot summer when I was 14, I played street cricket with my newly made friends, Cricket, cordial and more cricket kept me going.. My heart is still in that hot summe

This work of mine got selected in a poetry competition run by Greater Dandenong Council, Victoria and got  published in a poetry book titled "HOME".   "Home" is collection of work by talented individuals from different background. My piece here talks about every immigrant story..                                            ----------------------------------------- “Don’t stay there forever, come back home. We will be waiting for you.” my friend said to me when I embarked a new journey to this country. “I will go back home after I earn enough, I won't stay here forever! I told my colleague. “ Son! Now that you are aboard, we can’t just have a simple wedding for your sisters. People are expecting more . It’s not like we can’t afford it now! ” my mom tells me in our video chat. I save up and transfer money back home. “ You should buy a house. Rentals are dead money! You can always sell it when you go back home ,” my wise friend advises. “ C

If I was invisible, I would fly from Atlantic to Arctic.. From Americas to Africas.. Everywhere, If I was invisible, I would rob bank(s) and become the richest in the world, If I was invisible, I would play pranks on people just to pass my day, If I was invisible, I would rock the dance floor without a drink, If I was invisible, I would do sing-a-long with Ed Sheeran and Camila Cabello, If I was invisible, I would go to the top of Everest and make a snowman, If I was invisible, I would fly up to space and experience other planets, If I was invisible, I would ride an Amazon Jaguar and roam around the forest, If I was invisible, I would meditate with monks watching the stillness of the lake, If I was invisible, I would live in a place where I don't have to deal with SILLY people. Yet I would stay visible just for you. If I was invisible, you wouldn't know I exists, If I was invisible, we couldn't have lived a life we lived, If I was invisible,  I wouldn&

I used to be a vampire, Staying up all late and going to classes next day without a fuss. I never understood why people cry at the cinemas for a scene, Duh! It’s just a movie. Never had time to notice simple things, Life was an adrenaline ride. Taking risk without thinking about consequence was the “norm.” I had an “agenda” for my career. If you wonder, how can it all change after a tiny creature entered into your life. Forget about seeing an emotional scene from a movie, even hearing a normal conversation from a random stranger can make me cry now. Forget about staying awake till midnight, just 5 minutes past 9 is all I can do now. Realized little things have a power to brighten your day, Cuddle and a kiss can take away all stress.. Forget about that career agenda, any job that gives me “Me time” will do. Forget about adrenaline, sending a snack with "traces of nuts" is my biggest risk right now. Priorities have changed, Thought pr

Google Images Darling, I get that you are an explorer from your insta, I started to make my bucket list. I heard you are a foodie who hates cooking I enrolled myself in baking. I love sitting in the passenger seat and how perfect is that When you mentioned you enjoy driving. I’m more a listener than a talker and it works well because you are one talker. I understand the science behind opposites attract better now than my school days. Do you want to know what’s in my bucket list, A long drive, Listening you talk all night and Waking you up with a smell of homemade pancakes and maple syrup. Shall we do this like Russian-Doll in Netflix? E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y until we die.. PS: RUSSIAN DOLL is a Netflix series which is more like ground hog day. In simple words it is just an .endless time loop.. 

Kanamma, It’s that time of the year for us to celebrate you turning another year older, naughtier and cheekier. You are turning 7yrs/2555 days as you calculated it... While I’m dreading the fact that you are growing up quickly, you are busy counting years to turn 18 (few days back, when you said you have 14 days and 11 years to turn 18!! I was taken aback!!) Every time you do something awesome, you turn around and ask me whether I’m proud of you.. I want to assure you again “ it doesn’t matter whether you were awesome or not, I’m proud of you every minute as long as you are happy doing whatever that you are doing ”.   It’s not about coming first or being awesome, they are rewards of your hard work. I don’t expect anything more than your happiness. You started to read books on your own and you started to read chapter books lately (Zac Power/Ninja kid). I find it very cute when you read’em in your mind (not aloud), sometimes rolling in bed or sitting in the car. Ta

Once when A was about 4yrs, I told him about my previous training in Field Archery, he responded back saying " ONLY   boys could do archery,what were you doing??", I was taken aback. I had a fun info session with my 4yr old to make him understand that Girls could DO anything and EVERYTHING what boys could do. Infact girls do even more at times aka they give birth!!! He just didn’t want to lose an argument, so kept on arguing for days that boys can deliver babies.. He even convinced a friend at his kinder.. ha ha.. Jokes apart, how did a 4yr old get to that conclusion so easily(so early in his life!!) ? Is it from the shows he watch? . From the mythical stories he watched, it showed men in battlefield and the super heroes fighting the bad guys were mostly ( from Marvel to DC mostly) MEN. International Women’s day is celebrated to talk about the issues STILL faced by women; we have come long way from where we were and yet long way to go before our children enjoy the

I don't know it's the DNA or it's simply the country we live in or the sport G is passionate about or the exposure he gets all through the year..  It's something,  something makes A believe he will become a cricketer one day and play for Australian team..In our recent trivia time I asked him "Who will be a superstar cricketer in the year 2030".. Guess what he answered !! "Ofcourse, its AG!!" G tries to bring him to support India,  but it never happens.. A supports OZ even when they are in their worst form.. Recently I gather to worst of my nightmare,  2019 and 2020 is the year for cricket lovers..  First it's summer in OZland and then to IPL then to World Cup.. Before we know it,  it's summer  again in OZ then in 2020- its 20-20 world cup back in OZ..  I should seriously think about getting a second TV. It's about time,  I'm a cricket illiterate in the house everyone else believes its a religion.. and I'm not ashamed!!

“Will you marry me? “ He popped "THE" question with no warning what-so-ever. I didn’t reply anything but gave a smile. I must say It is the sweetest thing I heard in a while apart from the million I LOVE YOUs ’ I hear every day. This is about the sweet proposal I received recently from my 6 yr old.. Life gets crazy-hectic with everything recently at home/school/work.   Sometimes I feel I need a breathing space.   We all do.. I’m not alone.. When you hear something you didn’t expect to hear from your 6yr old, it kicks all the stress and problems far away. It wasn’t on Valentine’s day, so it wasn’t planned <Well! Technically, he knows only his b-day and Santa> However, It was a day in  FEB. It was time to tuck A in for his baby sleep and good night kiss. He then added “ Why do I need to wait for few more years? Can't we just marry now?” I couldn’t help but smile again, I sat next to him.. “ I love you too baby.. But it’s not legal to ma

Life isn’t fair, To my friend who was ambitious in high school, got married, dropped out of collage, gave birth to a beautiful child, her high dreams taunted her,  She felt suffocated, She thought she was a failure,   One day, she took her life just like that..  Life is unfair To her baby boy,  He was told it was a sign of bad omen that took his mother's life, he started life with humiliation with no mistakes of his own,  Life isn’t fair To anyone. No one is left alone here,  If you are special, you will be treated worse in the unfair world,  why me you may ask, because you are special.

In an ideal world: You pick a place for family vacay or decide it together, family gets excited and pinch in ideas with excitement!! My world: I pick a place, make list of things to do, prepare a business case with costing/flight options etc.,  and then, sit down to discuss it with my boys!! PC:Google Images <Excepted reaction after hearing the name of the place: Jumping in excitement or just a facial reaction i.e smile or least show me a smiley emoji . I’m easy to please. > In reality, all I get is A:   “But why??  there are volcanos.. What happens if we get stuck there.. I rather go to holiday program and stay home!!!” Me: Volcanos does not erupt just like that, we will have plenty of time to fly out.. Ok listen!! We could go swimming with dolphins!!! Isn’t exciting!! A: but you don’t know swimming!! Me: Ok!! You know what!!!   I have decided I’m going on a family vacay to the planned place I wrote that business case for.. Whether