Wo(a)ndering thoughts!!!

Every year Santa leaves a response note for A's letters, last year  as always A wrote a nice letter and Santa responded back appreciating his good behaviour and insisted him to start including FRUITS in his diet. I'm cap'ing fruits coz it is one of the battle, rather I call it a war that we were losing with A. It was giving G sleepless nights (not exaggerating!!).  Back story, we moved to South Korea when A was around a year old baby. He loved his breakfasts with fruits and yogurt and his childcare Korean lunches kimbap, soup, kogi & kimchi. We returned back to Australia when he was 3.5 yrs old, it was big change for him to adapt & adjust/include new culture/people/language/food in his routine. During that process, he lost appetite to any fruits and yogurt. He loved his yogurt/cheese/fruits while we were in Korea. What we found in the process is that taste varied from what we had there and  what we got here which made him totally avert these things. I didn't pu...

  Its been almost a year since we lost my father in-law due to Covid. We still haven’t came out of denial, we don’t know how to. Coping with loss without any closure or emotional support is hard. Closure : Pic source  https://www.nysfda.org/index.php/funerals-memorialization-3/222-what-is-closure When it happened last year, my husband was in complete shock. Year on, he still says he should’ve saved his dad. The guilt of not being next to his dad to provide moral support during those weeks is forever to live with. I still remember   the day his dad called us and said he has light temperature and going for Covid test. We didn’t think much since covid spread in the town where he lived was not high, we thought it is just a precautionary action. Probably that was the last time hubby spoke to his dad in full conscious. Same day FIL got admitted into hospital , slowly within 2 days he went to critical state and we never had a chance to speak to him after that. It escalated quick...

Its been exactly a year since I blogged properly, I felt lost for a while.. Woke up today with memories in FB showing one of my old post and that motivated me to get back to my space.  where do I start? Guess I can start with what I enjoy the most- writing about my conversations with lil A . Lil A stayed home almost 5 to 6 months in last 1 yr with 4 lockdowns.  Pretty much staying home together for that long made us Tom and Jerry.. Just without violence..and more endless arguments for anything from who gets the snack from pantry or switch off lights at night to everything..  Recently he started saying "Amma, you are so annoying!!" often... and in few minutes he gives a hug or kiss to cool me down.  March'21 I went for a weekend getaway with my GFs to Keyneton, stayed 2 nights and 3 days.. I called G after dropped my friends .. A picked up the phone, and the conversation went like this..  Me: Hi baby!! A  Where are you? When will you be home amma? Me: I...

 Vismaya ,24 yr old Medical (Ayurveda) student took her life few days back due to abusive relationship/dowry demands etc.,. WE as a society failed to provide a safe space for her to walk out from an abusive relationship. There are so many more Vismaya's out there right this moment, what are we doing about it? We/Society just blame the girl when she breaks a marriage and we make sure she goes down with no support even from her parents, who are afraid of what WE as a society thinks/say. If only she broke out earlier, if only the society supported the decision, if only her parents reacted to the earlier red flags without accepting 'its usual behaviour for grooms side' .. This is not normal, she went through physical abuse and still couldn't get help. This is someone's life, she shouldn't have died, she should've lived another 80yrs..we failed , we live in a messed up society that advices the girl to adjust and sacrifice, advices the girl what she is going throu...

2020- What did I do? hmm. Lets see, we had new year then its all blurrrr like groundhog day. Mostly eat-Netflix-eat-sleep-eat then Eat again.. yup! I ate a lot which meant I cooked a lot. Mostly due to A's encouragement ,it is hard to pass. He keeps saying 'Mom you are the best noodle maker/omelette maker or cake maker" although it is easy to delusion him with sugar.  He is seriously thinking about a new business plan - Laksa bar and I will be his chef. As flattering as it sounds, trust me its not easy to tell 8YO making Maggie noodles doesn't count as master chef.  There is a possibility that I ruined his taste bud with my precautions covid plan of no-take-outs or eat-outs until this virus vanishes. Shhh.. Im sure he can get his taste back in few years once we can eat out. Don't let me start with my marathon mania, Im talking about Netflix marathon, not the real one.Duh!! Do you even know me. All those Netflix script writers taking 2 or 4yrs to write those 8 seaso...

Its been ages since I opened my personal laptop, working from home has changed everything, its more like living at work. It meant all I do is work - eat- sleep in a merry go circle - day in and day out. Totally not me and so not fun I could say.  With so much happening in my life, Im learning more about life and reality, expectations from myself and setting boundaries for others. I believe there is a reason that this is happening now, it seems like a painful process but I might appreciate this in future when I know what impact/how strong  this  has made me. Only thing I struggle is to deal with is people.. People who show no or little respect for emotions or feeling. I guess everyone has issue with it.  I choose to stay silent, why not? when other person doesn't listen what I'm saying, why waste my energy. Keeping away from the toxic people actually keeps me sane. 2021 is an extension of 2020. There is no place to hide or escape, I believe I have to  face the pr...