Healing journey..

Its been almost 2 yrs since I blogged properly, partly coz I didn't know how to cope with losing few ppl close to my heart and deal with difficult family members.. Started off in early 2020, took me whole of 2021 to start my healing journey and Im in the process still. It felt like it never-ending constant battle trying to come out of grief /anger/frustration along with anxiety caused by expectation of others. Healing takes time, looking back I'm proud of myself for being mindful of my emotions and acknowledged them instead of ignoring 'em. It felt like lot of work and whole year seemed blur.  

I'm in a much better place right now in that process, still healing, but Im aware of my triggers and try not to think or talk about them. Trying to set healthy boundaries around people which is hard especially you are always told to go extra mile with others. Identifying the thin line between being self-care and selfish.  You are not healed until you come in peace with your trauma, it no longer triggers or angers you. I'm not there yet, it still angers me time to time. I hope 2022 brings more strength. 

A keeps motivating me to write, its just a lazy me didn't reach out to my laptop for so long.. My urge to write has reduced. its coz I have been so focused about healing and I'm exhausted by end of a day.  I did forget how much writing helped me clear my head. So many thoughts and ideas keep flashing every day and I keep thinking I should write that down..End up procrastinating with excuses..

Healing taught me so much about myself, its amazing how we ignore to hear our own inner voice when we start "adulting" or "just living".

Self-reflection is critical for personal growth. Unlearning is a new word I learnt in 2021, its a process- questioning every ridiculous thing ingrained in my mind. I hope to be a better person every day. 

Will try and post my thoughts often just for me to read later more than anything..