Wo(a)ndering thoughts!!!

My usual weekday starts with a cup of tea with G..Its the best time for us, that’s actually the only time we get to talk quietly without little brat interrupting us “Excuse me Amma! Can I talk  now!”. Today A woke up early with me, but G was trying to make him go back to sleep. I was alone having my tea , I took my laptop for some browsing. God knows why I started with the NEWS page. Within minutes, I regretted. I see ONLY sad news- its like we live in the SAD world- ONLY thing happening around us are  burglary/rape/kidnap/murder/how politicians deceiving the world .. There is no SIGN of positive news to start with.. It really got me and I closed my laptop.  However, the “stuff” from the NEWS running in my head still. I don’t feel good. By then G has given up making A sleep. A comes out and gives me a hug(Blessed).I would have accepted a meaningful hug from anyone by that time to make me feel better. Iam lucky that I have 2 souls who does it often to remind me ...

Today is just another wet and cold winter day, did I mention it is gloomy and depressing too!!! We appreciate the significance of sun in days like this. The magic of Sun/even the thought of a bright sunny day can brighten your mood and feel energized. I don’t like to generalize a concept and  shut my mind with just that. I appreciate what winter gives us esp the smell of nature on a rainy day, early morning fog and the leaf-less trees etc.,  But today is one of those days I'm not sure even Sun can brighten my mood. A is sick at home with G, I’m at work thinking about him.. I have a busy day ahead but its just hard to keep the thoughts of my lil one at bay. Days like this, you cannot avoid your responsibility to deliver things at work but have the guilt factor that you should be next to him giving him the cuddle and comfort he needed the most. There is no doubt at this very minute he is getting pampered(the best) by his dad at home. Isn't every working mom’s guilt or ...

Yesterday I SAW my neighbour after maybe 2 or 3 months, I hate to blame my work-life/ gloomy winter & shorter days etc., but basic things like 'seeing or talking to a neighbour'  become an activity or to-do list these days..  I'm really hoping summer will change this. Winter days are short, I leave home when its dark and reach home when after it gets dark.. After our usual greetings .. She asked me  'Do I miss my Korean life?'. I said I do, especially the support system I had  there with other expats/mothers. I always had company for coffee/lunch/go for trekking/swimming. Never once I felt alone.. Life was simple there, I didn't feel guilty for not working. Forget about the financial stress, I'm talking more about my own sanity. I really wish I have my friends from Korea live here, so I can hang out with them often. Returning back to Australia last yr, I couldn't stay home for even 3 months to setup our home here. Literally depressing, most of ...

Its not easy to engage the toddlers,especially 3yrs and up.. When I look back my last 2yrs journey, most of A's evenings filled with home activity. Summer is spent mostly outdoor and winter/wet/cold days are mostly indoor activities. It is always a challenge as a parent to keep up less tech-free/ TV time.    I thought it will be a good idea to compose activities, who knows it might help someone else..   G and I are big-time board game lovers, even before A came in to picture. So our family time is full of board games and Lego at home.. This is truly my activity list from past 2 years. I haven't included anything that I haven't played here or suggested something I haven't done. If it matches your list, its purely we are great people who think alike.. haha..Seriously!! For easier viewing I categorized them as Indoor,Outdoor, crafts, house chores ,On the road and Out & about.I have added links to some activities for reference ONLY ...

Often I have to remind A that G & I are (its mostly Me!!) the authority in the house.. still he doesn’t get it.. Once I told him for something he was refusing to do “You have no choice A!! you just have to do this (in other words ‘ coz I said so )”.. Now I get to hear this all the time from A.. Other day I was driving, he was talking to me about his day and he asked me something, which I did not agree. He replied back to me saying “ Mom, you don’t have any choice, you just have to do this ”.. I was like “What!! Why!? “ But he was pretty clear in his statement and gave me the reason Why- unfortunately I couldn’t deny him.. Which makes me think, my god! my little rat is trying to act smart and taking my role..    Yesterday, I asked him to get my mobile from the study table (me being LAZY and he was playing & had all the energy in the house)..He refused to do it..I said ok and gone quite (he knew I wasn’t happy!) . After a while I was scanning the pantry for my ...

Last year G's granny passed away and he had to go to India to participate in the final rituals.. I had to explain A what happened to his great-granny..The conversation went like this Me: A!! Ta's granny went to God. We won't be able to see her when we go to India next time. Ta has to go to India to see her one last time.Okay!! A: oh!!! Why did she go to GOD? Me: Because god wanted her to come back to him A:Which God ? <Considering we have 'n' number of God for every thing> Me: I think Lord Vishnu,  as great granny is quite fond of Lord Vishnu. A: What happens now? Me: God will send her back as a Baby to someones' house.. A: Whose house? Me: I don't know..Only god knows where she goes next.. After few months.. this "After-life" topic comes on and off in our conversations.. Because A is just curious little monkey.One day, A: Ma!! Which god you like? <Without knowing where this is heading>  Me : Lord Krishna !! Bec...

To give you a background, I’m scared of invisibles scary beasts aka G-H-O-S-T.. I’m talking about anything related to   G-H-O-S-T i.e its cousins Vampire or its ancestors Draculas for that matter.. I remember when I was studying at University, my friends forced me to watch this movie which wasn’t scary/Ghosty but scary to my standards, I couldn’t sleep for months after that.. I remember watching a scary movie with my cousin once made me sick for 2 days.. Another time I screamed my lung out watching my own shadow walk with me in the dark (stop laughing!!! I accept that was a dumb one)..     Now you understand the degree of my phobia??!!.. Some could argue THEY don’t exists, it’s just a movie!!.. My lips are zipped on this matter!! We don’t want to upset the invisible-ones who can hear us.do we??   What if just to prove the point, the invisible-one comes around to wake me up –“ HEY!! I’m REAL..Dont believe those people!!! HAHAHA!!!”.. Can you imagine that.. I w...