Wo(a)ndering thoughts!!!

Random chit-chat On one of the usual Tuesday nights with unusual discussion with my lil bud before bedtime. He finishes his day most days by saying who is the best in his life. G had to stay upside down to get the title of the day. But not today, he just said Ta is the best in the world and you are the second best mum in the world. This is the boy who thought I’m his world until yesterday and he is now in that stage where I'm his second-best mum!!! My heart just shattered ☹ Wait !!! what!! Second best mum!!! Who is his first best mum!!??? <did I miss any memo recently!!> I get curious and ask him “Who is your first best mum?!” He then goes on explaining “My first best mom is super millionaire and super-rich who buys me 100s of Legos and have a big house to keep them all!!!!” Hah!!! What the hell!! Should I be happy or cry now? Happy ‘coz he just assumed it's my job to provide him the million $$$ inheritance, not his dad by this world’s gender standards. Or Cry...

Its been a while I have done any blogging, not because Im busy or gotten other interests.. Just endless browsing reels keeps me away from doing anything productive. Well, don't judge me. I know you do too. As the saying goes "time flies" ,  its true between Jan 2020 and Jan 2024. I feel like we time travelled forward in a snap. I wish the grief and pain could vanish in a snap too.  My lil A is not little anymore, kinda entering pre-teen in few weeks. It is not challenging for me as a parent. It is challenging for him to parent me. Well, someone has to be responsible in the house.. He choose to be the one.. You will understand if you know me well!! He thinks he is a smarty pant when it comes to arguments. His come back and the counter arguments are instantaneous and they are always satired. He still hate his school camp for the food and toilets. Thank god it's done and dusted already this year. Worst thing is out of his way.  Before he boarded his camp bus, I could se...

Let's talk about the elephant in the room!!  Come on, its not bad. All of us has some toxic trait. I have so many but one that I noticed recently and I was rather shocked to reflect on it. Recently I did plasma donation which I started after seeing G doing it for so many years and got inspired and started it for my bday. I must say its not going well for me, I don't want to scare anyone who is thinking of donating. It is one of the best thing to do. For women who has mensural issues, you need to monitor your hemoglobin and blood pressure just incase it puts you in danger.    Few years back I was iron anaemic and I had to do few infusions. After a procedure last year my iron level is much better. I start off plasma donation, after my 1st donation, my hemoglobin dropped which I didn't notice until next time I went to donate. But the nurse reassured  that Im in normal range for donation. So I went ahead.  I didn't want to do my next donation immediately, I waited f...

 Digital Detox- isn't a fancy word of the decade? I see now and then people in social media taking a break and living a life like in 2000s i.e without constant notifications. Well!! Im forced in to one this month (Yes, its a month). Recently my flip phone glitched and stopped working. I gave it to Samsung customer care. It takes 3 to 4 weeks (I know!!! it sounds like 100 years) for them to work out whether to replace or fix. Until then I have this temp phone which I don't own. I don't feel like installing all the apps and then give it away in 3 weeks time. Its been 3 days, I don't miss the virtual world(yet) and the constant notifications. The only thing I miss is taking pictures while going for walk. Nuisance of this habit is when I had to backup 100000 pics of grass/leaves/flowers/greens/pathways.. Some of the same pic exists 10 folds. I have to either stop taking 10 pics of the same grass or flower Or consciously delete them after using it for my status. I have no ex...

 I'm going to write about this common topic which makes some people  awkward or uncomfortable . I'm not sure why that is  the case.. There will be atleast one person with an uterus around you either at home or at work or at school or anywhere in your town. Yes this post is about Mensural cycle - The big taboo M and my conversations with Lil A about it.  Did I tell you I don't filter my thoughts and we talk about it.. Often For as long as I can remember, periods are painful, sick and exhausting. My mom said it will get better once I get married. It only got worse as you get old from 10 days to 3 weeks leaving a week off in a month without pain. In that 3 weeks , mood goes on a roller coaster ride ,  doesn't stop with one ride but a whole a theme park .. non-stop , your headache hits the roof for few days and to make the party super fun add in some cramps & body aches. By then  you don't feel any part of the body.  For those of you reading this ...

One could split their life in to two parts if you are married, life before and life after.It sounds cliche'  but life do change in some way.  One such thing is the pressure of having a child, you get married and tried to settle down financially first before you commit yourself to take on bigger responsibility. Child is something was not in my radar , I was not ready emotionally, physically and financially at first.  We had our plans to settle down before we commit ourselves to become a parent. We wanted to make sure We build a support system in the new country we just moved in. If you live closer to your family, you have the privilege to count on them for occasional child minding.  I don't have that privilege, all we could do is one of us have to quit our job to take care of the child until he or she is  ready to go to day care.   Pressure was on from day 1, initially you don't take'em seriously, just brush off the comments to a point after 2 yrs every...

**Post was meant to be posted in July 2021** This year is the BIG year, I don't remember any of my previous  big O bdays.. thinking about it I realised  I never paid any attention to my age. Never once I told myself I can't do this coz of my age, I have always done something coz I want to do it. Hitting 40 doesn't scare me, it feels perfect.  Considering the life span of human these days, I may well be called middle-aged person. Where did time fly?  It is so true one can not get their youth or childhood back. However, one can choose to be innocent(not ignorant) like a child, curious like youth and stay young forever. Although my body and metabolism may not agree with it. who cares?! The only thing I planned as an adult is my vacations and holidays, not worked out what I want to be or where I want to be 5 or 10 yrs down the time.  I believe in life experiences and people we meet , how it influence our thinking and inspirations for next step. I look forward to tha...