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Lot of us ignore our mental health thinking it's for the weakest and/or it's for the those with chronic issues. The truth is, many of us including me doesn't acknowledge or address the constant fear or anxiety in this pandemic. It started off somewhere in China then Italy then rest of the world..slowly in to your town and now, someone in your street or apartment or someone in your circle has it.  Some of us can't stop thinking the symptoms of the virus even though cold and headache is common otherwise. I'm writing this because I'm strongest and bravest as a person, however I have to admit I would've hallucinated having the virus almost every week especially after my trips to grocery shops or when I have headache or blocked nose (due to freezing weather). Constant fear or anxiety is draining and tiring.. I cover it up nicely by ignoring or distracting myself with a good episode of Netflix. Are you like me going through this?   What I realised is we don't ...

That boy who got bullied at school; wished, he could stay home full time That girl who loved her job but harassed by her colleague; wished, she would never see his face. That recent breakup my friend went through; wished, not bumping in to his Ex. That multitasking parent who rushed from football game to music class  to cooking healthy meal; wished, she could get some rest from all the madness. That young couple who lived in a long distance relationship; wished, they could spend more time together without taking turns flying. That grown up daughter of my friend was saving up for an apartment in the city; wished,  she could say NO to work lunches and late night parties. That pet dog my neighbour owned; wished for his adult friend to stay home and  play with him. That birds chirping in my backyard,  wished for less flight traffic. I even hear Nemos and Dorys, wished for less plastic in the Ocean. That couch I b...

Its one of those days, I woke up feeling sad..I hardly ever worry about anything except for that yearly dose of  unresolved issue I get(Inside joke).. But this is different.  I'm not sure why/what bothers me.. I mean I know but I don't know. Its been 6 weeks since I started working from home, I don't know how long we will be doing this. I'm not complaining about my work or working from home, I quite enjoy this routine and spending more time with A.. Its the uncertainty of the situation and the unknowns scare me the most. The things I took for granted all this years, like  meeting family who live far away in different continent, friends who I haven't met in years (always in my yearly plan and not got around it)  and life in general. The yearly family visits, the three to four weeks that I spend with parents/in-laws /sister/ nieces/ nephews.   The cancelled catch ups with friends  due to time limitation in every trip meaning postponing that to next ...

My dear Kannama, You woke up  screaming 'Im turning 8 n 8 days!' ..  You have been counting your birthday right from Christmas and made sure no one forgets.. This is the first time you asked for a party,  wanted to invite friends and have it at General public -Bowling and Arcade games.. but God had different plan for all of us. This is going to be an unforgettable birthday..  8 yrs back today, I was in the hospital, my water broke early.. I still remember doctors were surprised to see I wasn't panicking or worried a bit. You know why? I was sure you would be fine,I didn't doubt for a second..I know for sure you will not just be fine, you will be fantastic.. No matter what, Ta and I will always love you, We will always be proud of you. No matter how many times you fall , we will be there right next to you cheering you to raise up on your own.. I know for sure you will.. Presents are packed, Balloons are ordered, cake recipe is ready,  party is planned, zo...

What can you possibly do whole day in a 3 BR house?? <Okay stop it! that's some show off!!> Seriously!! What can you do?? I have the perfect hack for you!! This is 'Dummies guide' to use up the space you are paying/paid EMI for.. I'm sure you couldn't have possibly used that corner of the house or slept in the guest room or used the spare toilets ever .. This is my guide to use up every space in the house in a day. 1. Wakey time in Bed room-1(BR1) Speaking of sleep, do you know how important sleep is?  esp now more than ever, 'coz we have 24 hours in a day to spend. Why not use it usefully!!!  Its a beautiful gloomy rainy winter day..  Need all the positivity and good vibes to push the next 14 hours before I go back to nighty nite.. are you ready?! PC: Pinterest 2.  Breaky in the dining room:   Yes, you heard it right!!! Have your breakfast on the  dining table you assembled with the dumb instructions which was in some alien language .. ...

'Hello beautiful!! How are you today?' I stop and look around.. I didn't see anyone..I hear the voice again.. 'You look so confused!! Hey, Stop!! don't you have manners.. Look at me when I talk,  don't walk away!! Oh wait, of course you won't or should I say you don't have time for it, in last 12  years.. Let me tell you the stats, you walk past me atleast 7 times on a weekday and more on weekends.. You can't fool me!! I watch everyone like no one is watching!!  Literally no one!! not even you!!' 'No, no, not him!! Don't look at him.. Here, this side..I'm over here!' 'I remember the day when I moved in to this neighborhood, I felt home, what I noticed over the years is you love your space, you keep them beautiful, So much has changed over the years in the neighborhood.. New  upgrades,  new tenants, new neighbours.. I'm the senior citizen here, I tell the new-bees where to go.. ' 'Don't l...

Dirty dishes can wait.. Pile of  cloths can wait.. Vacuuming and steam mopping can wait.. Mortgage payments can wait .. Perfect healthy meal can wait.. Workouts can wait..  Switch to a comedy show in TV.. Replace idle time to  sleep or nap time. Treat yourself with pancakes for breakfast, Instead of screaming to discipline the kids, extend their TV or Ipad time, Dress up everyday as if you are going out, Put on some music instead of sitting with a laptop/working alone,  Nothing matters, Calm down and  Just take a deep breathe, don't think about tomorrow or next week or next month.. Lets just pass today with existence.. Its good time to go back and look at old pictures from your last trip or reunion, Its good time to  call  your long distance friends and family, Even better,make a video call.  Its good time to read that book you kept it for some-other-time, Its good time to treat yourself with a cake ...

Last month this time, my team used to bring up the COVID dashboard to see updates and discuss about  Italy, China and S.Korea. Now it is our turn.. After a week in lock down, lot of appreciation for things around me esp  home, garden and  my space..  We are blessed with this year's Autumn weather, mostly sunny days... I'm grateful for the small garden , greens & flowers we have, its beautiful to just sit and watch A play. I remember the last time I spent @ home cherishing my time was when I stayed home with a new born 8 yrs back.. It was around this time too. Difference is, it was a much-waited-longed break back then.. Not that  I'm complaining this time around, I truly enjoy staying home, spending time with A, actually using every room in the house, sitting/walking in the garden and force to cook every meal(not sure I'm a big fan of this, looks like its just going to become my habit after practicing it for next 21 days). I thought Netflix would be my...

2020 started off with travel plans, wedding plans, big birthday plans, investment plans for so many of us.. Everything is put off  when the world realized the seriousness of Corona Virus. When it was within the walls of China, it was just some one else problem, when it happened in Italy and Iran, developed countries just blamed their administration. Right now when the reality kicks in for  developed countries, they are failing big time. Anxiety is building up for small businesses and those who are in non-essential jobs, many already waiting for aid from the government. Government is struggling to focus on two equally important issues, one is to address COVID and protect the citizens at the same time making sure the economy doesn't fall.  I don't think this situation can be avoided, but can be controlled. Sitting in our living room we can criticize the decision made by the powers of administration, reality is they need to balance health and economy to sustain. As ...

2019   gave me more strength,   inner power and mindfulness.. 2019 taught me to be patience, stay calm in times I didn’t enjoy. 2019 is the year I rediscovered myself after a long time through travel.. Overall it was like any other year with ups and down but “Me being Me” all I see is the positives that came out of the year. 2019 is a start for "mindful" eating and staying healthier . I have gone sugar free most of the time which made me realise I don’t enjoy those sweet treats that I used to binge-on.   Lot of people warned me that I'm going to be grumpy and cranky. To my surprise , I’m much calmer and lot of things doesn't bother me anymore than it used to be.. Hot Choc is my occasional indulgence and my secret affair..  Also focusing more on my PT, I'm not doing it to be on shape or reduce weight rapidly. Just doing it ,so I can walk that great wall of china and do that Machu Picchu trek in near future..   Just building up strength and muscles. Looks ...